Well, of course when I'm trying to fall asleep, my mind begins to wander and I the need to journal begins. So I got out of bed as quietly as I could without waking up the husband, but alas...I woke him up. I guess that's what happens when you sleep in a double. Soon and very soon we will have a bigger, nice, incredible, roomy bed-but that's not why I'm writing tonight now is it?
I struggle with my body image.
SHOCKER ALERT!
No really though, I do! And of course that would make sense as to why I created The Beautiful Truth, or really why I listened to God when he put it on my heart to get a ministry like this going. But even though day in and day out my mind is thinking about The Beautiful Truth and what I am going to do next. I'm always planning ahead, and dreaming about the future of this ministry. When I've got a few speaking engagements coming up, my mind is totally focused on what types of things I am going to discuss or bring up. So as I lay in bed tonight I could feel God knocking on the doors of my heart, telling me to get out of that warm bed and grab my journal. It's time to listen.
So as I started just writing and praising God for the day, and food, and whatever else seems to come out first, I started to write out some ideas for my message for next week. The word DECEPTION came to mind. I've been so deceived many times by the media and by the world that I NEED to be thinner in order to be really happy.
You might be sitting here wondering why on earth I would even believe such a lie when I've got a ministry surrounded by taking the lies we have believed and bringing in God's truth.
And that's what I'm trying to say!
I'VE STRUGGLED WITH IT. I STILL BATTLE THROUGH IT!
And that's why I won't stop talking about it! I may not have an eating disorder anymore, or struggle with an intense amount of lies about myself. But I still do struggle. Lately for instance I have noticed that since I've gotten married I've put on just a few pounds that don't need to be there. They have come on for a variety of reasons. Yet, as I have kicked my booty back in gear to try and get back to where I feel healthy again, I need to keep myself in check.
It's so easy for me to get excited about working out. I LOVE exercise! I promise you, I really do! Some of you right now are already saying you are crazy, I sure don't have that problem. But just listen to me...I promise I have other issues;) Really though, it can be easy to get obsessed again about losing weight and the number on the scale. When in all reality that's not what I should be going by.
For me, when I was coming out of my eating disorder and on the path to a healthier way of "being healthy" I developed a great lifestyle. Eating good. Not too many desserts (my #1 weakness, and I mean WEAKNESS hunny) and a good work-out 3-4 days a week. That's when I feel the best mentally, physically, and emotionally. Jason can even tell when I've gotten off that track because I start feeling really insecure and complain about my body. So when I get off that track, the downward spiral begins and I have to start all over again with that healthy balance of a life. Ugh...
Anybody feeling me here?!!!
The reason I am sharing this with you is because I want you to know I totally get it and even though it is my greatest passion and desire to help other women feel beautiful, I'm praying and pushing for the same thing for myself. I have come to KNOW that I am beautiful exactly how I am. Cuz goodness gracious God made me this way! It's just a matter of BELIEVING that and LIVING it out.
So what's my challenge for MYSELF today?
To believe it! To keep from getting obsessed with exercise, food, calories, unrealistic ideas that are built on lies. Yep. That's it! I've been created by God, in the image of God, as I am. So how about I continue to live in that beauty!
How about YOU live in that incredible truth with me.
It's all about the journey and about the healthy balance we live in our lives. I still enjoy a few yummy desserts through out the week. In fact, some dove dark chocolate every night after dinner to be exact. Just to have that little amazingness:) And it's about taking care of our bodies, and for me it's in my work outs each week. It's also about eating good food. Not just yummy tasting food, but food that is good for you! It's ALSO about spend time with my God each and every day because HE is the one speaking the truth into my heart each time I begin to be deceived by lies.
And that my beautiful ladies is all I have for you tonight.
Or it's all the writing I need to do tonight;)
Hugs and blessings!
Britt
I struggle with my body image.
SHOCKER ALERT!
No really though, I do! And of course that would make sense as to why I created The Beautiful Truth, or really why I listened to God when he put it on my heart to get a ministry like this going. But even though day in and day out my mind is thinking about The Beautiful Truth and what I am going to do next. I'm always planning ahead, and dreaming about the future of this ministry. When I've got a few speaking engagements coming up, my mind is totally focused on what types of things I am going to discuss or bring up. So as I lay in bed tonight I could feel God knocking on the doors of my heart, telling me to get out of that warm bed and grab my journal. It's time to listen.
So as I started just writing and praising God for the day, and food, and whatever else seems to come out first, I started to write out some ideas for my message for next week. The word DECEPTION came to mind. I've been so deceived many times by the media and by the world that I NEED to be thinner in order to be really happy.
You might be sitting here wondering why on earth I would even believe such a lie when I've got a ministry surrounded by taking the lies we have believed and bringing in God's truth.
And that's what I'm trying to say!
I'VE STRUGGLED WITH IT. I STILL BATTLE THROUGH IT!
And that's why I won't stop talking about it! I may not have an eating disorder anymore, or struggle with an intense amount of lies about myself. But I still do struggle. Lately for instance I have noticed that since I've gotten married I've put on just a few pounds that don't need to be there. They have come on for a variety of reasons. Yet, as I have kicked my booty back in gear to try and get back to where I feel healthy again, I need to keep myself in check.
It's so easy for me to get excited about working out. I LOVE exercise! I promise you, I really do! Some of you right now are already saying you are crazy, I sure don't have that problem. But just listen to me...I promise I have other issues;) Really though, it can be easy to get obsessed again about losing weight and the number on the scale. When in all reality that's not what I should be going by.
For me, when I was coming out of my eating disorder and on the path to a healthier way of "being healthy" I developed a great lifestyle. Eating good. Not too many desserts (my #1 weakness, and I mean WEAKNESS hunny) and a good work-out 3-4 days a week. That's when I feel the best mentally, physically, and emotionally. Jason can even tell when I've gotten off that track because I start feeling really insecure and complain about my body. So when I get off that track, the downward spiral begins and I have to start all over again with that healthy balance of a life. Ugh...
Anybody feeling me here?!!!
The reason I am sharing this with you is because I want you to know I totally get it and even though it is my greatest passion and desire to help other women feel beautiful, I'm praying and pushing for the same thing for myself. I have come to KNOW that I am beautiful exactly how I am. Cuz goodness gracious God made me this way! It's just a matter of BELIEVING that and LIVING it out.
So what's my challenge for MYSELF today?
To believe it! To keep from getting obsessed with exercise, food, calories, unrealistic ideas that are built on lies. Yep. That's it! I've been created by God, in the image of God, as I am. So how about I continue to live in that beauty!
How about YOU live in that incredible truth with me.
It's all about the journey and about the healthy balance we live in our lives. I still enjoy a few yummy desserts through out the week. In fact, some dove dark chocolate every night after dinner to be exact. Just to have that little amazingness:) And it's about taking care of our bodies, and for me it's in my work outs each week. It's also about eating good food. Not just yummy tasting food, but food that is good for you! It's ALSO about spend time with my God each and every day because HE is the one speaking the truth into my heart each time I begin to be deceived by lies.
And that my beautiful ladies is all I have for you tonight.
Or it's all the writing I need to do tonight;)
Hugs and blessings!
Britt
